It’s been cold and rainy here in the Bay Area, at least cold by California standards. Wind chill. Woke to snow on Mount Diablo the other morning. Rather like our souls, feeling the cold and rain and wind of the world battering our Lenten journey.
We are called to sanctification, says Saint Paul to the Thessalonians in our Epistle today, and Lent helps us with that. We clean out our hearts and our habits and all the mess that we have made of our lives. We scour with honesty, disinfect with courage, and peek at what we have left. We repent of our pride and our unlove and our breaking the commandments without care. We desire to be made new, to be healed and made whole, by the greatest miracle worker of all, Christ Jesus, who in today’s Gospel, heals the daughter of the Canaanite woman who is “grievously vexed with a devil.” He does it from afar, because the woman believes, is faithful. (Matthew 15:21+)
We too, want that healing. We too, want to have that kind of faith.
And so with great difficulty I have tried to memorize my psalm, but the words slip away, so I placed it in my phone with easy access, banishing my excuses or at lease embarrassing them. “God be merciful unto us, and bless us, and show us the light of his countenance and be merciful unto us.” (Psalms 67)
Mercy, blessing, and light. Like the burning bush, perhaps. Light radiating from his face toward us, love enlightened. Sacrificial love, the kind of love we are to practice. Forgive my unlove, Lord. Teach me to love.
But can we love with a cluttered soul? We must clean things up.
I visited our Berkeley chapel this morning and afterwards looked into the basement of Morse House next door where we store things, all kinds of things (don’t ask). It needs cleaning out, sorting, reboxing. There were files that needed tending, histories that needed recording and saving for future generations.
I thought my soul must look like that if the light of the Father’s countenance were to shine upon it. Things forgotten, things undone, things done that shouldn’t have been done. And so I pray for the light to see the damage, the minutes, hours, days and years of living, all packed into memory files that need opening and scouring.
I have found that weekly Eucharists help with this, feedings to strengthen my soul. The Church is like a spiritual gym and must be enjoyed weekly if not more often. We have been given the great gift of Christ among us, solving our sufferings, leading us with the light of His countenance. In the Mass we confess our failings and receive absolution. We are clean when we step to the altar and receive Christ himself in the mystery of the bread and wine.
Thinking now of this morning, and the amazing contrasts between the ordered space of the chapel and the disordered space of the basement and the wailing wind outside, I am thankful for the good clergy we have, the faithful friends who worship alongside me, and the organ that sends notes of glory into the russet dome above, sent aloft with our soaring songs.
I am thankful for a moment of brilliant light that revealed who we are, children of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost.
“God be merciful unto us, and bless us, and show us the light of his countenance, and be merciful unto us…”
I finally chose my Lenten memory work. I’m adding a Psalm from Evening Prayer (Book of Common Prayer, p.28) that seems appropriate today. I wanted a thanksgiving Psalm, but segued into praise and petition:
In this way I bracket my day with Christ, sending an Our Father upwards from time to time, calling his name, breathing Jesus. I border my hours with golden light, the light of His countenance. It is a joyful and miraculous gift to do this, a grateful grace for my life, a song to the Shepherd of my soul.
Sight is again repeated in the Gospel story of Christ healing a blind man. For that is what we are, blind, feeling our way through life, reaching for God, for Eternity, for Love. We know this intuitively but we must act upon it, sculpt our own souls with Christ himself.
This year the Feast of the Presentation of Christ lands on a Sunday, today, February 2, Epiphany 4, shining light on the act of the giving, of the presenting, of the offering of Christ to the world, indeed, to you and me (Luke 22+).

Are we part of a church community, one that welcomes us on board to sail the seas of our time? For community is one of the pillars found in Holy Scripture – community that teaches us, feeds us, leads us through the rough waters. It is the church family that gives us the songs to sing, the prayers to pray, the eucharists to strengthen our hearts and souls.
We are in the middle of Christmastide, those twelve glorious days of Christmas ending on Epiphany, January 6.
And we try to be like the angels and sing to him in his manger. We sing of the miracle and mystery of that unlikely birth, we harken to the herald angels singing glory to the newborn king, we sing of a silent and holy night when away in the manger there was no crib for his bed, we tell of the little town of Bethlehem and what happened on that midnight clear when the glorious song of old was heard as angels touched their harps of gold, for Christ is born of Mary, and while mortals sleep, the stars proclaim the birth and peace to men on earth.
We teach our children the songs, so that they will teach their children. To help them remember, we dress them to play parts in a stable in Bethlehem. We clothe them with the story of the Christ Child. They act out the greatest story ever told, and each year they add to their own library of Christmas rituals and traditions.
There is the silent hush of valley fog enshrouding our house today. The mute world waits, hoping for a sign. A sign of what? A sign of life, life everlasting, before and to come. A sign that we are more than flesh, more than animals on the hunt to survive.
The opening prayer that collected our small flock together on this brilliantly clear morning in a chapel in Berkeley was the “Collect for the Second Sunday in Advent”:
Advent’s daily prayer begins with “Almighty God, give us grace that we may cast away the works of darkness, and put upon us the armour of light…”. To memorize this prayer is to digest it, to send our words to God, expressing our need for re-forming, re-creating. And even as we pray the words, we become clothed in a protective garment, an armour of light, lighting the darkness.
Today is also the theme of Judgment. We shall be judged. The world shall be judged. But Christ takes our part if we desire Him; we are forgiven if we repent. And so we return to words – words to instruct our conscience, learning right and wrong, law and love. Holy Scripture becomes the textbook that teaches us where we have gone wrong, returning us to who we are and are meant to be. We need merely pray our words to Our Lord to be changed, to be redeemed, to be saved.
It’s been a week of words, words, words, and more words.