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December Journal, Third Sunday in Advent

Today is Gaudete Sunday, or Rose Sunday, and Heaven Sunday too. The Third Sunday in Advent is rich with meaning as we prepare for Christmas and the Incarnation of God, come to us to live with us and in us. Such miracle and mystery often astounds me.

The name “Gaudete” meaning “Rejoice” refers to the introit for the day (translated from the Latin):

“Rejoice in the Lord always; again I say, rejoice. Let your forbearance be known to all, for the Lord is near at hand; have no anxiety about anything, but in all things, by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be known to God.” (Wikipedia)

Indeed, the Lord is near at hand, to be born in Bethlehem soon and reborn in us daily, hourly, with each breath. We need only ask. It is a reminder to be at peace, reconciled to God, with His birth among us, in us. We request what we need and give thanks for the life we have been given. We need not be anxious, but are called to rejoice in the Lord always. It is a good reminder to do so in our worldly world.

We place roses on the altar (no flowers during Advent except for today) and vestments are rose-colored. We consider the “last things” once again, but in the lighter light of Heaven. Having considered Death and Judgment so far, today we hope in Christ to defend us when we die, when we face our examination, or court appearance as it were, that we see what we have done or not done, repent, be absolved and step through the gates of Heaven into the New Jerusalem. It is a good reminder to practice our repentance here on Earth.

The fog drifted into our valley this morning and settled around the hills, obscuring the lower hamlets and allowing the peaks to emerge into light. I watched it swirl and change and move on, as other mists born by the breeze came in, changing shape with each second, opening and closing the planet to the sun.

We too are obscured by the swirling mists of not seeing or not knowing or not being sure of what we believe or who we are. And yet we have a path given to us, a way of parting that fog, if we so desire. We have reasonable arguments for certainty handed to us by the church and a heritage of believers, witnesses who testify to what they have seen and what they know to be true. We need only say “yes” we want to believe, we want to step further into the world of faith, hope, love, and joy. It sounds too good to be true, but it’s true.

And so we look to Mary who said those words, her “fiat”, her “yes”, her “be it unto me…”, to allow her body to be the home of Christ Jesus. We travel with her through Advent, to learn how to say yes as she did, to step into this miracle given to each one of us, Christmas. We walk alongside her, and she with us, for she is our mother.

There is a wonderful icon of Mary and the Holy Child Jesus hanging in the great basilica of Mary Major, Santa Maria Maggiore, in Rome. It is said to be painted by St. Luke. Tradition and first century carbon dating testify to the probability that it was. Under the main altar lies the wooden creche. 

We light our three candles today, including the rose candle, and we recall our ultimate destination, Heaven. As we do, we experience a moment of Heaven on Earth. The candles flame, testifying to the Lord of Lords to come, to be born on Earth and reborn in our hearts.

Yes, come Lord Jesus, come.

December Journal, Second Sunday in Advent

The opening prayer that collected our small flock together on this brilliantly clear morning in a chapel in Berkeley was the “Collect for the Second Sunday in Advent”:

“Blessed Lord, who hast caused all Holy Scriptures to be written for our learning; Grant that we may in such wise hear them, read, mark, learn, and inwardly digest them, that by patience and comfort of thy holy Word, we may embrace, and ever hold fast, the blessed hope of everlasting life, which thou hast given us in our Saviour Jesus Christ. Amen.”   —Anglican Book of Common Prayer, 1928, 92

These opening prayers, written by Archbishop Thomas Cranmer (1489-1556), introduce the Epistle and Gospel lessons for each Sunday of the Church Year. Written at an exceptional time for the English language, the Elizabethan period, we treasure these vivid and lucid expressions, the heart of the appointed – assigned – readings, part introduction, part summary.

Words. Today was all about words. Words in Scripture. Words in prayers. The Word – Christ – the expression of God in human form.

We are to hear, read, mark, learn, and inwardly digest Holy Scripture. These words feed us, both soul and body. For words recreate us, sculpt us. Our beliefs form us; our word-expressions reach out to others, connecting, loving. We make sense of the world around us in words, and if the world doesn’t make sense, we don’t make sense. The body informs the soul. The soul informs the body.

Who are we? What are we? Christ answers these questions, giving each one of us a vision of our own selves as we are meant to be, as His creatures, His children. And with this self-portrait, painted with words, His Word, we are able to live our lives to the fullest, to His glory.

Without these words to mark, learn, and digest daily, weekly, monthly, stepping through the feast of festivals and seasons of each year, we become chaotic creatures empty of meaning and sanity.

Advent’s daily prayer begins with “Almighty God, give us grace that we may cast away the works of darkness, and put upon us the armour of light…”. To memorize this prayer is to digest it, to send our words to God, expressing our need for re-forming, re-creating. And even as we pray the words, we become clothed in a protective garment, an armour of light, lighting the darkness.

Advent. Sculpting who, what, why, and where we are in time and place is no small thing. Advent prepares us for the next great things – the redemption of the world, the apocalypse. For today’s Gospel is Luke 21: 25+ where Christ describes the signs that herald His second coming, when “the kingdom of God is nigh at hand.”

Today is also the theme of Judgment.  We shall be judged. The world shall be judged. But Christ takes our part if we desire Him; we are forgiven if we repent. And so we return to words – words to instruct our conscience, learning right and wrong, law and love. Holy Scripture becomes the textbook that teaches us where we have gone wrong, returning us to who we are and are meant to be. We need merely pray our words to Our Lord to be changed, to be redeemed, to be saved.

And so we prepare for the first coming of Christ in a stable cave in Bethlehem. We hear, read, mark, learn, and inwardly digest the Word of God, Christ himself, come to live with each of us, within us, feeding us, walking alongside, revealing who we are in this miraculous mystery we call the world, Heaven and Earth, now and forever.

December Journal, First Sunday in Advent

The nights have been clear and cold here in the Bay Area. We can see the stars and I reach to touch them, they seem so close. Advent is the time of stars in the heavens. Advent is when we follow the star to Christmas. We reach and we follow the star.

There’s a good deal about light and dark in today’s assigned lessons as we leave behind thanksgiving and open the door to Advent. Light and dark, life and death, judgment. We are told the four last things are to be considered in these Advent Sundays: Death, Judgment, Heaven, Hell. Indeed, these are the four last things we will face when we die, and it appears they are also the four last things to consider when we are alive, if we want to live life to the full.

And so in today’s Epistle, Paul writes to the Roman church (13:8). He speaks of the night being far spent and the day at hand. He tells us to cast away the works of darkness and put on the armor of light, walking honestly as in the day. He even tells us to “put on the Lord Jesus Christ” which I would assume means wear Him like a garment, a protection against the dark and the judgment.

These are big things, subjects we would rather avoid. Especially judgment. We define deviancy down and further down, so that we can deny judging anyone and thus not be judged ourselves. And yet we know deep within there is a moral law all mankind senses, reckoning that a standard has been set, a standard we don’t meet. And with law there is judgment.

What happens when we die? Where do we go? Will we be held accountable for our life on Earth? Christian theology answers these questions in ways that make sense and that have proved true. For in the last twenty years+ witnesses to Heaven have returned to give testimony to what happened to them there. A great deal of literature has been collected, depositions, great clouds of credible witnesses.

And so we face the light and the truth of who we are, in Advent. Today we face death, that it will happen to each one of us some day… today, tomorrow, in fifty years. We are told to live each day as if it were our last, to savor each moment, for these minutes will not return.

We light our first Advent candle in our Advent wreathe. It is only one small flame in the dark, but it will light the others, each week, until we see the light of Bethlehem, the light of the world, the light of Christ.

Our preacher said that yes, we are in the Endtimes. For Catholic teaching says that the Endtimes – the Apocalypse – began with the birth of Jesus. Each of us has a role to play, a job to do, a vocation assigned to live out fully. Each one is a precious bead in the great rosary of the universe, in the miracle of time itself. Each one of us is necessary to complete the picture of man’s salvation. What is your vocation, job, role? What is mine?

Yesterday was the 150th anniversary of Winston Churchill’s birth. He led the West into the light of freedom, away from the dark of tyranny. He was a great leader for he sensed his destiny was to act at certain times. He was unpopular often, as many leaders are, for he listened to what he thought was right and wasn’t swayed by opinion. They say he wasn’t a religious man, but I say he listened to his head and heart and the angels that hovered about him. He knew the road to take to win freedom back. He worked long hours and slept little. He was brave. Steady. True. Industrious. “Never, never, never give up,” he said. “The price of greatness is responsibility.” And some humor alongside: “History will be kind to me for I intend to write it.” “You have enemies? Good. That means you’ve stood up for something.”

Reminds me of a certain political figure who recently won the White House. And it is interesting that President Trump had an American mother and a British father; Prime Minister Churchill had an American father and a British mother. Both leaders were (are) brash and committed and decisive… and fearless.

It is good we practiced gratitude for our blessings this past week. Gratitude humbles us. Gratitude says, we owe something to someone else. Indeed. We owe much to those giants that have preserved the West, and fought for our freedoms through war and peace. We owe much to our local church, filled with good souls who try to love us. We owe much to our own families who try to put up with us. We owe much to Our Lord who gave us life itself and continues to breathe life into each day we live.

We open the door to Advent, to the advent of Christ among us, that we may be worthy of His gift of life. We light our little candle and watch it flame and flicker, knowing that we are growing green with each day of penitence and prayer, until we complete the circle of pungent pine and shine our little lights on the Light of the World.

We begin at the beginning, the first day of the Church Year. In this new year we open the gates of Jerusalem – and our hearts – to the Messiah as our Gospel reading describes. Today the story begins, and each one of us will play a vital part in the greatest drama of all, life overcoming death, eternally, minute by minute.

We follow the star and see where it leads.

Singing the Song of Thanksgiving

The Cross on Mt. Diablo, courtesy of Bob Marx

I’m pleased to announce that ACFW, American Christian Fiction Writers, has published my post, “Singing the Song of Thanksgiving,” how Christian writers sing songs of thanksgiving with words, breathing life into dust and ash, singing life into our dying world, lighting the dark with the cross. 

Singing the Song of Freedom, a Birthday Melody

I’m pleased to announce that American Christian Fiction Writers (ACFW) has published my birthday post, Singing the Song of Freedom, about how Christian novelists sing the song of freedom to the world with our words, lighting the dark with beauty, truth, and goodness. Thank you, ACFW!

May Journal, Trinity Sunday, Memorial Weekend

Today we celebrate the Holy Trinity, the three persons in one God, God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit, beginning the long green Trinity season of growth.

The weekend merges with Memorial Day, fittingly, for memory is a gift of God, a cherished record of who we are and who we are to become. We honor our history and those who fought and died for our nation, a history erased, no longer passed on to our children.

We must not forget. We must not lose our memory of the past, whether it be personal, national, or those truths acted out in history, the salvation of mankind. For the past informs the present, directing the future toward the truth.

Tomorrow, Memorial Day, we celebrate those men and women who have given their lives for our freedom, fighting in wars on other shores, in other waters.

We must not forget. The cost of freedom is dear and it is far better to pay that price peacefully through common laws, agreed upon by a common people, and enforced by their representatives.

We must not forget. The imperative of truth seeking and truth telling in our fragile democracy is the foundation of our fragile freedom. There is not your truth and my truth and their truth. There is only the truth, and it is our challenge to seek it honestly as best we can.

My father, a chaplain on board the Phoenix in the South Pacific in World War II, was a man of truth. Fresh out of Dallas seminary, he joined his ship in June of 1944 at the age of 28. He prayed and he preached and he pastored his young charges, as kamikazes dove into the sea around them. He returned to America even more dedicated than when he enlisted.

He continued his passionate ministry, pastoring in Fresno, Palo Alto, Berkeley, Lafayette, and San Mateo. Through the years, he sought the truth so that he could bear witness to the truth.

The Father, the Son, and the Spirit formed and forged him to become true to the ideals of equality, human dignity, and compassion – truly Christian ideals.

We too must not back down in a world of lies. We must follow the path Our Lord lays out for us, embracing every opportunity to heal our broken world.

For we are broken, with hearts both good and evil. But the Father reaches out to us with the Son, and the Son fills us with the Spirit. A trio of loves lives with each believer, a holy nesting birthing a holy voice that sings the song of the Holy Trinity to the world.

And so we sing the words and the melodies of life itself, of freedom itself.

We learn as baby Christians that God gives us free will to choose to love Him or not. For love can only live within freedom of choice. Freedom comes from God, our precious gift from the Trinity of persons, the Trinity of love.

And so we sing of America the beautiful, of the stars and the stripes that unfurl in skies both clear and cloudy. We sing of our history, so that we will never forget the immense and astonishing gift of living in a free country. We sing of our heroes who died to protect this gift, and we sing of their courage as they fought to protect our shores, our families, our children.

It is true that the truth will set us free. Free of the bondage of evil. Free to welcome the freedom of love. Free from the unlove pulling us into a quicksand of death.

For the truth is the Holy Trinity, the reality of God’s great love for mankind, each one of us. The truth is the Ten Commandments, God the Father’s prescription for living in an unloving world. The truth is the Summary of this Law of Love, to love God with all our heart, soul, and mind, and our neighbor as ourself.

So on this Memorial Weekend we pause to praise the God of all memorials, the Lord of all lives, the Father of all freedoms. We remember with our sacred memory those who have gone before us, those who gave themselves for you and me. We tell our children these sacred stories, so that they will tell their children, so that the people of this great nation will never forget our brave soldiers.

For they gave their lives for us, just as God the Son gave himself for us, in the abundance of mercy from the Spirit and the Father. Just as the Son gives eternal life to all believers and living waters in this life on earth.

We remember and we give thanks for all those who seek the truth about man and God, for those who act upon that truth, that freedom be prized and protected, and for those who honor these men and women who gave their lives for us all.

I can hear Our Lord’s words at Heaven’s gates. “Well done, thou good and faithful servant. Welcome to paradise. You have not been forgotten.”

May Journal, Feast of Pentecost, Commonly Called Whitsunday

The Feast of Pentecost, the celebration of he descent of the Holy Spirit upon the disciples gathered in Jerusalem, is one of the most dramatic scenes in the New Testament, and while I have always been astounded at the Gospel and Epistle for this Sunday, today I considered one phrase our preacher said.

He said the Holy Spirit was the fountain of life. Creation. Baptism. The Spirit upon the waters… stirring us up (like the Advent Collect, yes).

In Baptism we are given new life in Christ, becoming one with the Bride of Christ, the Church. We are given new life through water and Spirit.

And May is the month of life, of birth, for we celebrate mothers and the life they welcome, or we mourn the life they reject. We look to Mary in May, the month of our lovely and loving Queen of Heaven, who shows us how to say yes to the Father, say yes to the Son, and welcome the Spirit into our hearts and lives and families. For the Holy Spirit descended upon her, the power of the Highest overshadowed her, and she conceived in her womb the Son of God.

And, as she was commanded, she named him Jesus, this Holy Spirit child, this quickening of Our Lord in Mary. She said yes, be it unto me according to thy will. (Luke 1)

Just so, we say yes to the Holy Spirit descending upon you and me. In this way, we take part in creation, the creation only you and I can create. For each one of us is unique; each one of us has a singular gift, a creation for mankind, one that will light the dark for others to see. We must offer this gift, for no-one else can offer our gift in our own unique way.

I love meeting people. For each person is a sacred story, with stories within the story. I look at a new face and wonder in awe at this unique person, for as the Psalmist says, “I will give thanks to thee, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are thy works, and that my soul knoweth right well.” (139) Each person is marvel-ous, awe-full, full of mystery, miracle, and majesty.

And so when I heard the Epistle this morning I could hear the rushing mighty wind, could see the tongues like fire touch each disciple, filling them with the Holy Ghost. I heard them speak in tongues, different languages, so that they could witness to the diverse travelers to Jerusalem, “of every nation under heaven.” How could these Galileans speak in all these languages? I too was amazed at the dramatic scene. (Acts 2)

The Spirit gave them the words, reversing the story of the Tower of Babel, uniting, not dividing, loving, not hating. With words.

You and I are words, expressions of the Holy Spirit’s creative act. We say yes to such miraculous powers of creation, for in the Gospel today, I was enlivened, reassured, by Christ, for he says that the Spirit will teach us all things. We must not let our hearts be troubled or fearful, for the Spirit gives us the peace of Christ. He descends upon us to dwell within us. (John 14:15+)

Tongues of fire. The metaphor reminds us of the glory we have been given, all in a simple answer to what we are called to be, to do, with our lives. All we have to do is say yes. Just like Mary, our dear mother, and like the millions (billions) of faithful throughout the world.

We too will be given what we need to speak the language of Christ to the world. We too will witness to what we have seen and heard. In our own unique, diverse, marvelous way. With our own words, witnessing to the Word made flesh who dwelt among us.

And we behold his glory.

May Journal, Rogation Sunday, Fifth Sunday after Easter

Today is the last Sunday in Eastertide, the celebration of Christ’s resurrection from the dead, and with his conquering death, we too are resurrected, now and when our bodies die, releasing our souls to fly heavenward.

Thursday is the Feast of the Ascension, the celebration of Christ’s new body, his resurrected body, ascending to Heaven after his time on Earth, giving witness to his resurrection.

I have found it is true, as others have noted, that the gospel accounts read as historical witness to what these writers saw and heard. They lived in Christ’s time and place and gave witness with their testimonies, passed on orally in the first century, then written down. They are like depositions in time, reaching to us two thousand plus years later, and setting an example for us to reach others in our own time and in the future, should our words be preserved.

The great seasons of the Church Year give witness as well, as the Church devises over time a crystalline channel of memory through story and song, poetry and prayer. These celebrations do not need to be read or written down, for they are living, breathing, enactments of the gospel testimonies.

And should we be confused as to the meaning of these events, we look to the Early Church and the letters of Paul and others who trained these baby Christians to become adults in Christ.

What is the meaning for mankind in these revelatory actions of God the Son on Earth? 

The intersection of Time with Eternity seen in the birth, life, death, and resurrection of Christ, the Son of God, effected a revolution of thought and action, continuing to be of huge consequence to the world. This revolution came to be known as the Judeo-Christian tradition, the mores and morality of what we call Western Civilization. Never before were men and women treated with sacred dignity, being made in the image of God. Never before were we held to a such a standard of behavior, to such a judgment, to such consequences for our unlove, our selfishness. Never before did we have a blueprint showing the way to happiness, even joy, an instruction manual, the Holy Bible.

And as the Bride of Christ, the Church becomes the means to share these miraculous and mysterious truths with one another. 

All of these great gifts God has given mankind, distilled into governments and charities and cultures and societies that embrace Christianity – or Judaism – are under serious threat today. And yet Christians are not afraid, for they know how the story of mankind will end. And in the end is their beginning.

Nevertheless, in the time that is ours, the life we own, we witness to the God of love who created you and me. We witness to life, from the baby in the womb to the last days of our elderly to those suffering early deaths. We witness to the family, the life blood society that trains our children to be truth-tellers too when they come of age. We witness to the delight in being a woman or a man, knowing that we are made in the image of God, Imago Dei.

And so we sing our song of love to the God of love, who befriends us, instructs us, delights in us, and raises us up with him to sing our song in the New Jerusalem along with all those who have gone before us who witnessed in their own lifetimes.

In this month of Mary’s May, we thank Our Mother Mary for saying yes long ago in a village called Nazareth. Her fiat made all the difference to the world, our world. Our fiat makes all the difference too.

And so we say with her, be it unto me according to thy will.

Amen.

April Journal, Fourth Sunday after Easter

It’s a beautiful spring day here in the Bay Area, a time to appreciate the beauty of the natural world as it is reborn each year, giving us a good greening before the dry season turns the grasses brown.

I too feel reborn, as I always do after Easter and Resurrection Day. One of the glorious aspects of the Christian life is that we are always being reborn, as we confess, repent, and are forgiven again and again. We do not carry the weight of our human failings on our fragile shoulders. Christ carries it, his gift to you and me.

My novel in progress is now sitting with my first editor (will have numerous ones this time, I believe!). With many other challenges in my life this month, it took carefully scheduling to finish the draft, but thanks be to God the draft was drafted and winged its way to the East Coast to get to know another writer/editor besides myself. Funny thing about manuscripts – they can be quite demanding. So The Music of the Mountain left home to fly away to finishing school and will have many stories to tell when it/she/he returns, how she became finely finished, perfectly polished, and who knows, actually readable.

It is said that when writers send their manuscripts out into the wide wide world it is like sending a child away to school. At some point, we just say, okay, fly. But don’t forget who created you! Still we think of all the changes and additions we still need to make – create another plot line, another character, another setup and payoff, another scene, another dialog. That’s when I tell myself, breathe, breathe, breathe the name of Jesus.

I suppose God is rather like that (Dorothy Sayers wrote about that in The Mind of the Maker). He made us, gave us free will, and eternally desires that we love him as much as he loves us. He wants to be with each one of us, 24/7, loving, choosing, directing. But we must invite him in. Sometimes I need reminding.

That is what the Church does for us. Reminds us how much God loves us. Reminds us how we are resurrected with him.

ResurrectionWe had a lovely annual Church Synod last week, another extended family gathering of the faithful which is one part reunion, one part inspiration, one part meeting and greeting, one part fellowship, and many parts encouragement. We live in a challenging time for the Church – any church – a hostile time in which we must not throw pearls before swine, must choose charitably, desire dutifully, and trust Our Lord completely. We are the music of the mountain (plot spoiler), each note, each hymn, each concerto. We all play our part.

And so I sing today’s Collect, making a chorus of the words, “Grant unto thy people that they may love the thing which thou commandest, and desire that which thou dost promise so that… our hearts may surely there be fixed, where true joys are to be found.”

And so I sing today’s Epistle, James 1:17+, one of the most exquisitely beautiful verses of Holy Scripture: “Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down form the Father of lights, which whom i no variableness, neither shadow of turning…”

In our lives, we have momentary visions of God, of Eternity, of beauty we nearly cannot bear, so exquisite is it. So we breathe it in in the name of Jesus, just as Jesus breathed the Spirit upon the disciples. And as we live, and learn to love, the beauty of the world enters our hearts and minds and souls, to remake us, to finish us, to bring us one step closer to Heaven and Eternity.

Thinking about my draft again, and all the stories I didn’t tell, all the loves I wanted to include, all the mysteries and miracles of life that are stacked in folders all around me that didn’t make the cut (there’s still time I tell them). At the end of the day, what I have not packed into these chapters is huge and daunting and waiting to be included. Alas, I tell them, sometimes less is more…?

But then I know these glories of research have sculpted me, made me grow, fed me with Eternity, right here in my little bookroom, the shelves pouring books upon me, sent forth by my cat, Angel.

Did I mention my novel is about books? Lots of them.

Thanks be to God.

 

Singing the Song of Life

Happy Eastertide to all!

I’m pleased to announce American Christian Fiction Writers has published my post, Singing the Song of Life, how Christian storytellers sing life into every page and plot, carving the conscience of our culture. Thank you ACFW!